A year of unconditional love, almost unbearable heartaches, uncontrollable laughter, small mistakes, big dreams, and very little change.
Looking back on the past year, I have realized that I am stuck in quite the rut.
I remember being asked five years ago, right around the time of my high school graduation, where I thought I would be in life five years down the road. I remember thinking and hoping that I would have graduated from college, have found a wonderful job, maybe be in love with a wonderful man, but I am far from those predictions.
I don't hate my life. Far from hate. But I do know that I want 2013 to bring many changes.
I also know that if I want things to change, I have to take control of my life. I have been relying on others, listening to their thoughts and opinions not my own. I'm going to take risks, do things that I have been so terribly afraid of doing for far too long.
It is time for me to stop worrying about what others might think. I focus too much on trying not to disappoint other people, when in reality I disappoint myself trying to make them happy.
I know that when the clock struck midnight on Tuesday my life didn't instantaneously change. I know that in 2013 I am going to have to work my butt off for what I want. I'm going to struggle, but I know that struggle leads to success. I refuse to let myself sink into this darkness that is slowly consuming me.
Most importantly, this year gives me 365 more days to watch my favorite little boy grow, and learn, and discover this beautiful world that I have lost touch with. I hope that I can learn to love the little things again right along with him. The little things are sometimes the most important.
Resolution: Make myself happy. Like I said above. This year is about me. (And Aidyn of course!)
I can't wait to see where I take myself in 2013. I am going to do big things.
I've had my share of difficult moments this past year.... But I have also made some incredible memories!
My best friends wedding, KFL, 50th wedding anniversary, Christmas, A Hero's Homecoming, memories with my little angel, a first birthday, spending times with my family, visiting old friends, show me your muscles & so much more. I am thankful for what I learned this past year, and thankful that I can make steps to a better New Year!!
Wishing each of you a happy, healthy 2013!
Cheers & Love
SGK
